Saturday, May 14, 2005
I have just received a bad news from my mum... it came upon me that sudden.... in fact, it took me by surprise... she was someone who i know and we are close but not yet close... she was my neighbour, she live just below me.. we were close in a way, that we stay very close to each other, we were in the same pri and sec sch, we were always compared by both of ours mum in terms of results, height, future, boyfriends and etc.... all these factors lead us not to talk to each other much... but we have always known of each others presence....i always thinks that she is much better than me... i do know that she is smarter than me in terms of results but still we seems to have build a barrier between us..
but the news that my mum brought to me was a SHOCK!! the thought had never came up to me before... ever since my grandpa and granddad passed away, i would only link the word "death" with old people... i have always thought of death as part of the life cycle, it is a process that all mere mortals have to go through after all... coming into this earth peacefully and leaving it peacefully....
yet, for this "friend" of mine... i think it is a pity that she left... she left behind a loving family, parents that really loved her a lot... she left them behind crying bitterly for her... she left this earth with a broken heart.. i guess it must be bleeding so hard that she have decided to end her life... she left the world on a day which she was suppose to give thanks to her mum for bringing her into this world.. she jumped off the builiding on mother's day........
Life is so precious yet FRAGILE... does true love really exists?? she died b'cos she believed that HE was her true love... she chose to die because of love... then what really is LOVE?? *sobz* i dunno what is love already... i have been waiting for my "prince charming" to appear, but will his appreance a start of another tragedy... finding a puzzle that fits in ones life, is a difficult task... but maybe if i dun try to find one, i won't get hurt...
DEATH awaits...........
YEstie
10:07 PM